Dear Easter Bunny,
It’s been a long and winding road, but I hear the bells ringing, and they don’t make my head hurt anymore.
So it appears I have mellowed, miraculously, over the last few months. Psychonalysis can be given some major credit, of course, and my relentless desire for inner peace is bearing fruits. I’d also like to thank the academy, my family and friends, for puttign up with me these last few years. And I’ll never speak highly enough of my intensive non acid esther-c vitamin regimen, which has made it possible for me to wake up every morning before 8 am and not want to shoot someone.
I’m also communicating better (though my lack of regularity writing on this blog might say otherwise, but I’m pretty good at posting inspired and cryptic triple haikus as my facebook statuses). Paranoia is easing up tremendously. Now, if a guy attempts to approach me, I’m able to conceive that he’s probably not from the CIA, and not totally out to screw with me. Just a little, on principle. It’s all pretty straight forward. I’m back to my old ways, less the crap, and less the need to stare at men like they’re pieces of candy. That’s a step in the right direction.
Work seems to be heading in the right direction too. Momentum is around the corner, and there’s definitely a sense of reconciliation with myself, my personal paradox, and the curiosity to explore every dark and light corner of my mind. Become who you are. Right. I’m all that.
Have been reading a lot of Irvin Yalom. He rocks my world. If he weren’t over 60, I’d probably have his babies. He’s genius. It’s like reconnecting to a close relative you didn’t know you had. Total encounter of the third kind.
I’m also experiencing something brand new. I’m exchanging emails and having conversations with someone who’s at the very opposite of me in the solar system. Pro-everything I’m against. But open about everything. Makes it very real to engage with someone intellectually who doesn’t think how I do, yet makes me crack up with laughter and want to stay open and flowing. Cats and dogs. There’s been crazier things in the world, I’m sure. But it sure takes a lot of mind-opening from my part. Extremely enjoyable.
So thanks, Easter Bunny, you always come at a time of reflection. Not much chocolate for me this year. A lot of duck in every shape and form, and white wine, and giggles. The works.
I get to meet my newest god-child tomorrow. Her name is Nyssa. Glowing new life in the Universe.
And now for some packing and organizing before plane back to Paris.
Mad Love, always, and missing my friends out and about the world
MN
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